Disappear

At times I feel that I hate everything that fact in my life, at times wanted to disappear and not to appear never, but at times wanted to disappear and not to return never but. .... at times wanted to be in a place that did not were this, at times wanted to do things that did not I do for fear to the others, at times I hate me. I am falling, I am falling, by my fault, my fault. already is late to remedy my errors. ...
At times meant everything that I feel without importing what say, at times wanted to have again that world that created all that time, but I am destroyed for our fault... and never to be again as before, at times wanted to shout and to disappear and to believe that all this well.
At times wanted to amuse all of good way, at times wanted not to be so blind, and to say all immediately, at times wanted to sink me for raise me not again but, at times wanted that the problem that I separate us, be to destroyed, at times wanted to be going to seek you. ............ But itself that is impossible and I blind me to what can see
At times did not want that the others depending of my, at times wanted to sew my eyes for see not the real thing, but to realize what I am losing, or what already lost, by our fault, at times wanted to go back in the time and to tell it all, without fear.
At times I feel that I hate everything that fact in my life, at times wanted to disappear and not to appear never but, at times wanted to leave the dark world that pursues me and encloses me in its world and then to return al from before..
I am sinking me from to little, disappearing, disappearing. .... destroying me, by the errors already ,made it, that do not have solucion, because already is late to be able to remedy the injuries caused by my. ...
At times wanted to close the eyes and that all to be again as before. ...